1.19.2006

B&W chickens

Just an image from last night's dream:
Sandy brought home a flock of chicks, all colored in stark black and white. There was a black goose among them. Then a small dog, perhaps a Chihuahua but also colored in black and white, leapt from a shelf behind my head and ran among the chicks, causing fowl confusion.

1.17.2006

From a hole in the ground

First, I find myself in Spain, arriving at an airport. I wander through the place, somewhat amused to see how small the building is in this old world country. The thoroughfare is crowded with people. I'm trying to get out of the airport so I can go somewhere else, but everything baffles me as I attempt to leave. Finally I get outside the building, but nothing makes sense. I walk aimlessly around the outside, unable to find a bus or taxi. Night falls and it is cold as well as dark.

Scene shifts. I'm in our backyard with Sandy. She is sitting beneath a large horizontal tree branch, which is making ominous squeaking noises. I urge her to get out from below it, which she does. Then the branch, which must be two feet or more in diameter, somehow transmogrifies into a rolled up carpet. I grab one end and pull it out like a roll of paper towels (perhaps I should say like a roll of toilet paper) until it covers the back yard. However, once spread out it begins to sink in the middle. I pull it back and there is a giant sink hole revealed beneath it. I can see torn roots and layered dirt descending down into blackness--there is no bottom to it. There's an aura of danger.

Sigh. (B)anal.

8.17.2005

More light, said Goethe

Wish I could remember all of this one,but what I do remember starts here:
I'm in a shadowy alley talking to three other men. In the near distance there is a group of other people separated from us, and sitting in a lighted area. I'm trying to convince the three men that I should be part of their project? conspiracy? group? I have committed some crime, nature now unknown, that will qualify me to be admitted. I'm explaing that I can't go back to my job as a bookseller. I quote a few lines of some classic poem to illustrate my position. I can't remember the poem, although it was something about how can one go on doing x when y has happened. I do remember that in the dream while I quoted the poem I could see it written on a page, not as in a book of poems, but within the lines/ like this / broken by slashes / the way a poem is sometimes quoted in a text.

I don't know how they received my plea, but I found myself going outside of the shadowy area. I paused at a gate to adjust my belt? zipper? and looked back down the shadowy hallway. I see a young woman approaching,but she sees me fiddling with belt or whatever and turns away. I realize that she may have interpreted my gesture as sexual.

I leave the building, now for some reason carrying a change of clothes in one of those plastic dry cleaning bags over a hanger. I cross a green, well manicured lawn and see that a piece of plastic detritus has caught on the plastic of the clothes bag. I scrape it off with my foot.

I leave the lawn area and head down the street. I see large buildings in the near distance and I think that I'm in London. It happily occurs to me that I could visit some art museums. With that I look up and see that I'm entering a public park. It is crowded with ornate lightposts. But at the top of each one, instead of a simple light fixture, there is a a brilliant yellow plastic tulip, enormous in size. Though it isn't lit (it is midday) the sunlight is making the tulips glow against an intense blue sky.

.....

Amid the clunky clashing of sexual symbols, a transcendant light leads me forward. This is becoming common in my dreams.

7.20.2005

In my father's house...

I'm in the top story of a two story house. Night. A few lights are burning in the kitchen. I try to turn on another light but it doesn't work. I try another, same thing. Because the night is stormy I conclude that a fuse has blown and only one circuit is still working--coincidentally the one that the lights I was using was on. I decide to go downstairs, where my father lives (he rents the upper story to me), and find the fusebox. I go into the bedroom to get warmer clothes and find the bed there occupied by a mysterious figure wrapped in the blankets. This is unexpected and a little scary. I touch the blankets at the foot of the bed as the first step to pulling the blankets gently off the figure so I can see who it is. When I do, the figure erupts out of the blankets, feet kicking out and nearly hitting my face. I see that it is myself, violent with fear.

I turn to the closet and find a sweatshirt by touch (the sweatshirts are softer and thicker than the tshirts). Returning to the front of the house I find that all the lights are now out, though I can still more or less see in the gloom. The front door opens and my father enters. He seems in a cheerful frame of mind. I tell him that I was just about to go looking for him so that he could show me where the fusebox is located. He walks over to the kitchen table, which is a picnic table, and sits down. I join him there, but before we can talk I see another figure moving toward the front door. He's hard to make out in the shadows, but seems to be an old man. I walk toward him and see that he is also my father, but a shadowy dangerous version. I'm afraid as I approach that he will shoot me in the stomach with a gun. He doesn't, and I return to the table. The shadow father also comes to the table, so that the three of us--me, father, shadow father--are sitting together. The shadow father is silent, but my father says he wants to talk to me about the aloofness between us. There is the sense that he wants to overcome it. I don't know what to say and I turn to the windows where I see that dawn is breaking and light is now streaming into the room. I wake.

7.15.2005

Id as B movie

As in a movie...
We see a heavy car in the middle distance speeding down a winding mountain road. It abruptly veers off onto a cleared dirt area below a rocky cliff. Dust flys and the doors jerk open. Three people get out and quickly set up a chair, where one of them sits. He looks like an actor being prepared for a role as demented preacher in a zombie movie. His hair is thick and curly, afro-like, mushrooming out from his head but it is heavy enough to leave a part in the middle. His clothes are ragged and disarrayed. It is clear that he's being made up to fool someone, someone criminal. As part of the disguise he can make candles appear from spots on his body, as though miraculously. One spot is above his forehead in the part of his hair. When he presses a small device in his hand, secretly, an absurdly phallic candle grows from his head. Less grotesquely, but more interestingly, at the same time three small candles grow from his heart. There is much conversation between the people there about whether the disguise will be effective.